«In myself a new source has been found. It’s neither about what I thought I was nor my feelings, the most equivalent might be a source of inspiration, as say eyewitnesses. The result is flow, this already is clear»
Fear of being taken over had made me suspicious almost all of my life. Mistrust of force. Mistrust of power games. Mistrust of competition. Mistrust of chasing respect. My own destructive shadow. Looking deep down into myself. Looking into my own manipulating behaviour. Relating with an agenda. Chasing respect. The world as enemies. My own shadow was destroying me along the way. My biggest fear. Now I embrace my own manipulating shadow. I embrace everyone’s manipulating shadow. Seeing the shadow…..
I concentrate my energies inside my chakra channel. Out of my open heart, I say a loving no—silently or spoken out—to humans who still are suffering. I’m an entire yes inside of my chakra channel. In stillness, I bow to the beings who are suffering and silently say, “Thank you that you live this part of my universe. You complete my inner universe.” Now the suffering of another human, especially a motherly woman or a fatherly man who is hard on himself, doesn’t take me out…..
‘Allowing‘ to me is a state of mind. Wonders in my life have happened, when I was in a state of quiet inner bliss. Our cosy little house manifested out of nowhere. I was asked to write „a book about transforming“ out of nowhere. I met my dear mate while I was in this quiet state of inner bliss. What equaled in all these situations is that inside of me were neither any expectiations nor any resistances. I was empty…..
A dear one told me excitedly how she admired a man who gave everything to his ex-wife: all his money, his car, everything. My stomach turns upside down hearing this. I realized that I had been living earlier partnerships in the belief that “Love is giving everything.” I was in a consciousness of lack and anxiety. In my mother’s womb, I had already learned that love was “to respond to someone with adrenalin, noradrenalin, cortisol and dopamine”—in short, the biochemical cocktail of drama. No wonder I…..
